Entering the Cave
Posted On May 29, 2016
The warehouse bedazzled A cave full of riches Smells from Mother’s world Wafted through Filling her with almost dread Boxes piled high Reflecting a life well garnished Spying the highest box The Daughter reached As best she could Tip toeing Extending her arms To where her fingers Barely brushed The cardboard Arms stretched Ascending, Scaling Moving boxes Becoming a metaphor For final moments With one push One last empty extension Her fingers somehow Scooched the bottom Flying through the air A trunk full of treasures Landed in her arms She held fast As a Mother Cradling her newborn The final bits of stuff Fill the void Of lost conversations Each keepsake a delight Post It notes Strategically placed Offer comfort Her voice still alive Mother becoming A private tour guide Post It notes leading the way “George would die If he knew how much money Cleo and I spent decorating the house...” “We found that jade frog when we went to China… Don’t you remember?” ”And that silver pattern is simply scrumptious..." A second box? Of course! There is silver Lots of it Tons of it No need for cleaning Delegating the task Each peace spit and polished Just before packing With blue Post It notes Wanting to insure their purpose Becoming Mother’s voice Hearing her clear as day Another box? Please! Pictures Life with Mom The Zoo The park Disneyland High School graduation Mom in her clowning days Moving boxes and paper Liter the landscape While orchestrating a clean up Of stuffed boxes filled with paper A photograph Flies from nowhere Mother Kissing Daughter's forehead Again She runs the show As well it should be Another box? Sure… The third box Less confronting Crisp white linens Way out of date Mother loved to entertain All cloth No paper aloud at her table Excepting, perhaps A used cocktail napkin Keeping linens unsoiled Another? O.K. Treasure chest number five This one particularly coiled The ripping The tearing Each piece of tape Reminding her of old wounds Childhood promises unmasked Undone, incomplete Rip Choosing the husband Over the daughter The child left alone Silent Rip Promising an adventure Then forgetting The child left behind Silent Rip Friends not knowing Mom had a daughter The child invisible Silent Rip Silent Rip Silent Pain unleashed Tears stream Each object Each gift Now a burden Rocking Hugging Cradling her grief Ah an explosion of warmth A calming salve Comforting Consoling Mother’s unbridled tenderness Stopping cold The flood of emptiness Filling her heart space With nothing but love Lifting a pain soaked childhood Now understanding Mother’s deepest regrets Were her own fears Yet in her heart of hearts The daughter always came first Always Tears flowed Not from grief But from Abiding love The boxes becoming Once more An adventure A discovery A delight Another box? Yes The Daughter Reaches into the next Treasure trunk Full of silver